I drew a picture that had some ducks in it. I think I’m gonna redo it because it could be better and also ducks are a delight.
I feel like I’m dying. There’s this weird acceleration that can’t be measured, but when I sit and think, things are moving pretty fast. Not too fast, and I’m not complaining. That’s just how I feel.
I like Sufjan Stevens. It's 5:57. My body no longer allows me to sleep past 5:30 as of right now.
I had a really great evening last night. This might come as really pretentious, but I really wish I could make some people as happy as they make me.
It's getting increasingly likely that I'm going to school for another Fall semester.
Guys here are some things that make me very happy:
Scott Pilgrim vs. The World
The Shins
Punch-Drunk Love
This animation I did during church yesterday (turned out better than I thought it would)
Making my own food (I bought lunch meat and bread, and now I make sandwiches, that taste both fresh and delicious).
If I went to Hogwarts in the day and age of Lily and James Potter, I would've been Snape's best friend, I'm sorry that James sucks and ruined your whole life man. In case anyone wants to know what's 20 times sadder than Dumbledore dying, it's the fact that Snape was broken over time, till he died very low.
Speaking of which, Harry Potter makes me happy too.
I finished reading "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo," which was pretty good, but most importantly, now I can start reading a new book! There are many I want to read:
Wonderboys by Michael Chabon
Pretty much everything by Michael Chabon A Canticle for Leibowitz by Walter M. Miller Life of Pi by Yann Martel
There are others. The possibilities are enticing. Recommendations are welcome.
I'm also really excited to watch some T.V. shows that I've read about recently, namely "Deadwood," and "The Sopranos."
And there are promising creative ventures to be had! Mud Dragons, Big Quest,(Some sample art seen here, art by Trevor Bush, my collaborator) an unnamed screenplay, and and and ashdhgjncnaksdh hooray
"Your issues don’t have to have power over you because other people empower you to rise above them, ideally." -Todd VanDerWerff, AV Club
The concept that quote is espousing isn't really a popular one it seems. I read another quote by C.S. Lewis that said "Don't let your happiness depend on something you may lose," which as it stands as a general blanket statement, I disagree with*. While I agree that you shouldn't put all your happiness eggs in one basket (feel free to use that curious metaphor), because that will inevitably hurt you and also it hinders your ability to make that other person happy if this said basket is a person, simply put we as human beings are going to depend somewhat on potentially fluctuating things for some degree of happiness.
*(Sort of goes along with a blog post my friend wrote about how generalizations suck, something I agree with)
For instance: C.S. Lewis himself was married at one point in time, and his wife died. There is a book written by Lewis about his raw bereavement entitled "A Grief Observed." A person completely prescribing to the Lewis quote above would say "I guess he shouldn't have depended on his wife for happiness." That's a pretty screwed up attitude to have.
I ranted about this for nine minutes in a video because I was both bored and angry. But to be more concise than I was before: people are going to let you down sometimes, friends and family, and that's going to make you sad, because you invested time and feelings into those people, but that's okay, because those people make you happy as well, and ideally you've found or will find people that make you happy more than the alternative.
I really like the first quote by Mr. VanDerWerff (sorry if this next part is sappy) because it explains partially how I feel about my close friends, and I'm going to stop talking now since I'm bad at making that eloquent like a certain VanDerWerff did.
Lastly, the article I read the VanDerWerff quote was a review of a Community episode in the AV Club. Community comes on this Thursday, and that is a fantastic thing. Here is Community's very own Troy Barnes:
Before he performs his heroic deeds, Batman stands with his head bowed at the edge of a building, any building, as if conceding defeat before his inevitable victory in the alley below. An eternally unconquerable loneliness. That is what we see in Batman, not man masking his identity to the outside, but a figure draped in his true self, hoping that some good can come from such sadness.
Reality Television
I seem to remember as a kid thinking that this could be really cool, real people's reactions to real situations. But somehow it seems that the folks running these programs decided to make them both boring and low grade.
Tunnel Singing
For everyone not at the university I'm attending (Ginevra), it's when a load of people go to this short, wide tunnel and sing hymns together, which sounds adorable, but in actuality reminds one of a mob that instead of lynching people, is content to be a stationary entity and sing hymns. So not that bad, but not for me.
Clapping when someone drops dishes and makes a noise in a public place
Seriously, how is that okay.
Low-Brow Comedies
For example Billy Madison or Meet The Spartans or other stuff like that. I've seen Disaster Movie, and it is the worst movie I've ever seen in terms of quality and overall enjoyment.
Saying "I love you," flippantly
I got a text from someone who said I love you sort of casually/jokingly, and I did not reply with that set of words, simply because it would've felt weird since although the term's been bastardized, that's a pretty strong emotion reserved for people that are close to you (this is my opinion), not as a "thank you" for recommending a therapist for your jack russell terrier.
Today's radio hits
For the most part anyways. One exception would be Gotye's single "Somebody that I used to know," which I find undeniably catchy and some of the lyrics are pretty well written. And listen to the way he delivers "and that feels so rough."
In a Lonely Place - Humphrey Bogart film Let the Right One In - (sorry I've been on about this one) The Man Who Shot Liberty Valance - John Wayne picture Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close - in reference to the book not film Arkham Asylum: A Serious House On Serious Earth - Graphic novel, fantastic Catch-22 Brave New World No Country For Old Men - book is awesome, heard the film is as well All the Pretty Horses - same author The Yiddish Policeman's Union - Book The Prestige - Film and book, haven't read We regret to inform you that tomorrow we will be killed with our families - book about Rwandan genocide We, The Drowned - Book i saw at the book store Super Sad True Love Story - I read some and it was weird, no judgement yet, good title
There are no other good titles. Gotcha! There actually are. Feel free to share, more later perhaps.
I lost my key. This is the fourth time I believe. I felt pretty stupid the first time. So the fourth time, to no ones surprise, feels similar. Here's the best scene from Romeo + Juliet, which was interesting but not great.
Losing a key is one of those things that breaks the camels back for me. In addition to losing keys, I'm also bad at school which is most likely a reflection on how well I'll be able to sustain myself in the future.
I saw something beautiful today that I'm excited to show a friend.
My family moves and loses members of it's ranks Beautiful and Bright they were One's gone off to fight tanks And another off to college And one day I watch Father of the Bride and I hate every man that might marry away my dear sister
My family brings me up Foolish they are my own Blood in my veins must mean They'll share my pains, I'm lean And skeletal and far away
My family sails th'Atlantic And I'm a child no longer they fear Detestable in taste and sight "But blood will keep us near Though we will cough and wish to spit Hoping you were not our own" A changeling I can't make me be Wearing us all to the bone
It is fear that drives them now They've spent their whole life through Teaching themselves that Family's best But Mother and Father had other families that are Less important now
